Its Raining really heavily today. None of my close friends are online, missyouguysalot, especially Hazmidaruu and also ika, the bitches i loveyouguys. So i was thinking about studying earlier on but then i began to be rather lazy. Parents decided to karaok & yeah i tagged along; mybe thats why it rained heavily?Eh takder takder, we sang nice okehh haha! Blame the weather not us*peace*.

SHIT.

Tomorrow is already school? wtf. There will be loads of test. Ok not really. There will be geog test and vocab test. I heard that mother tongue test is going to be hard. All the best for me. I feel like having tuition classes like what Dayang is having now but i hate the tight schedule. I shall think twice about it eh. Im such a lazyAss. Singapore susah la eh. I must go to poly, Ok not must but i'll try. I'll pray everyday to god to give me the strength to do so. Amin.

As you all can see, i went out with this small guy, Danial(:
We met up at Cck station and headed off to esplanade for dontknow wht thingi. I thought that the whole Singapore will be closing up all the lights, but actually some parts aja -.- So, since his hungry we went Marina to eat at burgerking. Danial blanja fries for me. Aww, so sweet haha. Thnks little fellow. Aftr that met his friend, Farhan then separated cause we didnt know where they went. Walked around esplanade again and then to dontknow where pnyr seven eleven buy " gulp". I campur alot of drinks and thts why i feel like vomiting now. Danials fault ahaha. Then off to clark quey to talk talk about " life". MP xD Took loads of pics but semua case posing sama aaha. Cacat~ Thenthenthenthen we talk crap and all beh balek~~~~~~~~ haha.

Hey. Congrats to me for understanding todays maths lesson. I nailed it, i sure did(: YeyYey. Well, today, atfer malaydance we headed to causway, where else? aha. I bumped into lots of greenridge people. I bumped into both of my cousin from different side and also some old primary schoolmates. They're all so tall now. I remembered teasing them when they were short during primary school, aha. Im such a meanie but see how tall they hv grown. Now, im biggining to miss all my primary school friends especially my close friend of all, Dayang. I treat her as my true friend cause i trust her. Eventhough we lost contact quite a few times, ur still the best. You understand how i feel much((: Imissyou la korean fanatic. Ohyes, not to forget some other people like fithri and all. Had fun " lepakkinng" with you guys. Imissyouguys too. I also recalled the times we argued and the problems we had. Its Funny la, so effing childish. Well, cant be blamed at right? Young people, what to say. Dont friend here and there la. So cute~ So yeah, hope to meet you guys soon): Like really.


Note: Please stop blogging about the same " theme" again and again. Your such a bore.

Im letting my hands off, and i dont know why. No connection, nothing and your not trying your best. Im always trying my best cause i dont wish to loose you but now i give up. Sorry but i just have to give up. Its going to be four months and counting from the first month, we only met like a few days? Is this what i deserve? my friends always say:

" mel, your boyfriend is not working right? so fun can meet you everyday"
" mel, you look so good with your boyfriend, so perfect. If only im like you"
" mel, wahh dah nk four months, not bad aye, you know your boyfriend alot now aye?"

All those positive thoughts people think of us, is it really true? Whenever they say that, i feel crushed, i feel like a BIG FAT liar. I lied to them saying that im okay when im not. If only you guys now what im going through nowadays. Im sorry for lying. and yes, On the other hand other Close friends tht know abt all this, keep asking me to let go but i dont want to cause i know that your trying your best to keep the relationship going. But now what? I keep siding you when people have negative thoughts about you. I keep saying stuff to make them like you and not hate you. I keep thinking of you day and night like as if i dont have a life. I keep on waiting for your calls. I even slept late to wait but still no calls. i didnt get anything in return at all.

Peeople also say " woah, that guy must be lucky to hv you". Do you feel lucky? Do you feel treasured? Do you?I doubt so.Besides, Do you know i have lots of other people calling me but not you? Do youknow i have 100 and 1 msges from other people and not you? Why are those people entertaining me? making me feel happy but not you? Whenver my phone rang i'll run towards it not thinnking what i banged into. but when i checked it, it wasnt you. Im trying my best to not feel any negative thoughts about you but i just cant help it. You dont call me, you dont msg me so how can i not think that you dont treasure me anymore?

Your too busy with other stuff and when your free your out with your friends. I dont care you go out with them but hv sometime with me first cn?! we barely go out, we barely call, we barely connect. Just atleast give time for me! Is it that hard? I swear i dont control you at all. I guess im giving u too much free hand and thats why our relationship is like this. im stupid.I just have to express all this in my blog. I suck being a girlfriend and thats why im trying my best but you dont seem to make me feel that whatever i do is worth it. So frm now on, do whatever you wanna do. I'll folow the flow. Im still young. Mesti enjoy life. take care and goodbye. Im still keeping my promise.

Hello People(!)
Im back from camp! I know you guys miss me. Aingg, joking. So, i came back home today and i quickly took a bathe and went to sleep. The next thing i know i was alone at home with all the bloody lights off. I panicked cause i thought something happened to my family or what - kay feeling- and so i called mum. Thy went bowling. I pun tak kesah cause i was feeling rather lethagic. And not for long i got rather bored and so i msged this BUDAAKKaction cause i kinda miss him. He fucking sombong i tell you! Kerek giler eheh. but whatever it is, his nice. IM SWEET RIGHT budak?! See. K fine, i need to talk on the phone now. Toodles corns!

I need to blog! Cause im efffing bored. Theres seriously nothing to do. If only im using my latop, i'll webcam all day long with retarded people like Danial. Joker la that budakk kecik ;D Korek idong je tau. Anyway, my aunty came to my house at eight just now. Had our little Dinner and talked about life and all. && HEY, im taller then them. Fuhh! Mel2, your so tall la right? Agreed. No one can beat my height, cehh lagi dasyat. Lamak, my mum wants to use the somputer now. Cinta fitri fanatic arh mummy(!). ByeBye, Live you life.

HELLO MONDAY! no school no school - screams-
But yet no one to go out with -sigh-

Went to the UCC hall to practice our syf dance today. It has been two years since i've stepped onto that huge stage. Spotlights, dark surrounding and oh-so quiet place makes me feel so nervouse. I could barely smile on stage, like seriously. I wonder how i did just now? hmm. Whatever, im not a good dancer anyway. So after that we headed off to banquet. I hate it when people stare at you when your walking down to find a seat(!) Annoying. Like nak makan like that. But like interesting~ ok shuttup mel. Ehh, i feel like sleeping. Shito burger. Bye!

I have to admit that my post early this morning was rubbish. Whatever it is, he is still my only boyfriend. Lets start a fresh. I shall not state the reason why im not out today. Argh! As i said it before the last post, i didnt do well for my first term. This year is rather tough getting ready fr nlevel format thingi. Tsk. Furthermore, this year my schedule is rather tight with remed, cca and yadda yadda. So best of luck for me [;

NEED A NEW SCHOOL BAG(!) . Haha, my side bag's sling pecah and also my school bag like shit. Basically, im lazy to re-spray it nyaha. I thought of getting a sidebag arh. Like nice aja haha.So shes gonna find it at flea market. I loveyou alot. And i keep bragging her to cut my frindge hahaha<33 Irritaing ehy. Alrighty i shall stop talking ;D Cheerios~

Malaydance was alright but accept for the fact that my dance instructor got real mad with this secondary one girl, atiqah. Omg, she cried and a sudden flash back strucked me. I was in sec 1 and it was my first time joining Syf. I swear i cant dance well and i got lots of scolding from my teacher. Then suddenly one " fine" day, My teacher got real pissed cause i couldnt do one step that everyone could. The pressure around me and also th teacher shouting out of her lungs towards me, made me break into tears. I was afraid and i was dissapointed of myself. Even how much practice i did i couldnt do that step somehow. With the sudden silence and everyone staring at me, made me feel like a fool. I began crying more, i couldnt stand the shame. I hated myself that day, i really did but i persevered on. So my dear junior, Atiqah, Please be strong. Prove her wrong(!) You can do it, I bet you do. Put a smile on your face and dont be afraid okay. I've been through your situation and im still living. Live your life(!!!!!!)

Anyway, Putra sended me back home. Chehh tau drive seh Apekk. Thanks eh, all this Mr ___ fault haha. Pangseh Pangseh. Oh one more thing, nyari hari war(!) Semua sepakk each other like nobodys buisness. It was great ;D

Am i being too nice or what? argh.
Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid. Emelda your stupid. Now i think all this started off wrongly. Now im irritated. Now i hate this situation. Now i feel like crap(!) I thought whatever i did was just to make em happy but now its all wrong. Im inlove with only one person and that person is my boyfriend. Shit. All this while i've been treating u as a friend and nothing more then that. Yes, i cheered you up but it doesnt mean i like you. Like i said, im inlove with only one person now. Please dont misunderstand me. Your just a friend. Takecare and Goodbye.

SECOND POST FOR TODAY:
I bumped into this blog, and i found this written in one of the pst the person wrote.

FIRST POST FOR TODAY:
Shall update about yesterday(!)
Eh?Shit, i hv difficulty remembering wht happened. Stm sikit, SIKIT aje eheh. Hmm, yesterday.

• Watched Harriz perform, together with Hazmidar and Dayang. Hot la he do the tarian(!) oh well, spr nyr? HAHA, k joke. Watched till it ended fr the first round and then i had to meet my sister. So, kissed em gdbye and went off. MYGOD i miss him already! -sighsighsigh-
• Terserempak Zick in th library. Another MIA person(!)(!) . Zick kene probation, sedehh kn! lalermak Zick. You cacat. Oh, i Made a new friend, Arep ;D
  
• Semua membrs dah nk jalan, called Shaykh since dah lamr tk jumpr. Hang around till 8? i think? Thn dia antar mel balek heeeeeeh. Thnks dude. OH YAH, this i must tell you guys, I accidently stepped on a snail D; &#@%()$#%&) . SO SADDD, srry little snaily.

So much about yesterday, and now about today(!)
Lessons, as usual, cikgu maths buat perngai, tsk. No hope eh pass maths, kirim salam -.- After school, went to get Harriz birthday present(!) Excited sia. But still, i dont knw whether i cn go or not. Sadd. Whtever la, iloveyou.