" Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you."








" I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more."








Love,
MELzukifli

I want a boy I can’t get enough of. He would read my favorite books and watch my favorite movies, just to talk about them with me. He would get me so mad I can’t even think and then kiss me out of no where.He would laugh at all my jokes, no matter how stupid they are, and pretend to like my friends, even though we both know they’re the biggest losers ever. He would hold me when I cry, and he’d know when I say I’m cold, I really just want him to hold me. He would hold open doors for strangers, and would never miss the chance to hold my hand. He would give me hugs and tell me jokes that aren’t really funny, but make me laugh anyway, and hewouldn’t put up with my bullshit. He’d teach me how to play sports and watch Grey’s Anatomy with me. He’d watch movies with me that we both know by heart, and we’d recite every line, cause we are picky on movies like that.He would tell me I’m pretty, but not too often, and surprise me with notes in my locker, or 25 cent rings. He would walk with me outside,even when it’s cold, and know what to say to make me feel better. He would help me study when i have a test, and never make me cry on purpose.He wouldn’t mind when I talk during movies, or interrupt his stories. He’d become friends with my family and have dinner with us. He wouldn’t be embarrassed to kiss me or tell me he loves me, ever, and he would let me buy him stuff when i feel like it, and listen to the music I like, even if he thinks it sucks, and he would share his music with me. He would go to the beach with me, and when I’m tired he’d let me fall asleep in his arms. He would always know how to make me smile, and he would sing to me. He would call me just to say hi, or to tell me he was thinking of me. He would tell me his secrets, and let me tell him mine. He would be my best friend, and he would never, ever break my heart.



I found this. So i decided to post it here(:
Enjoy~


Love,
MELzukifli

I didnt start off my day with a gd note.
Somethings wrong with my phone and my day didnt turn out well.
BIG SORRIES TO ALL OF YOU.


But it ended smoothly. Thnks to my girlfriends. Am so happy i met them up today! Really. Would be happier if my ' qeely weely is so pretty' girl could turn up. Well, its okay, we're meeting up at Jp tmrw anyways! Yeepy. OHHHHHHH!



Mums birthday! Mums birthday! MAMA I LOVE YOU. MAMA I SWEAR. <33
even though i got u just a small CHOCOLATE cake, in my heart, ur the biggest CHOCOLATE CAKE MOTHER that i'll always love.

loverboy
loverboy
loverboy
hmm.

Love,
MELzukifli

Love,
MELzukifli

Hi.
im angry with myself.
cause i seem to suck with everything i do or etc.
Im going off to bed now.





-sigh-
-sigh-
-sigh-


Love,
MELzukifli

Elective module was alright.
Had a rough time doing the basic hair perm. -sheesh- and had difficulties doing up a basic dinner bun. I REPEAT, a bun. Never endless 'Wtf-ing' here and there during class. Seriously, perming is hard. Butbut, i got th hang of it already ( or should i say us)! Amin. OH! We even tried iron perming on the guys hair. At the end of the day satusatu rambut rambutan! haha. Im just looking forward for tmrw cause we're going to start off with cutting and dye-ing yo! On the upcoming Thursday, we'll be heading to Orchard to meet up with a famous hairdresser! who? err... ( krick krick)

ANYWAY.

I slept like a PIG! Okay no, Filzah slept like a pig. I slept like a "good girls do". Slept smack four hours in the afternoon. Yep, unhealthy i know ): I woke up and realised that i was hungry. Had a little food just to cover up the space and here i am blogging. Im still yawning, so i guess i'll be knocking off to bed again. Maybe, cause im just waiting for that very someone to text me. Yawn yawn yawn yawn yawn.

Twitting.Twitting. Twitting.
Oh yes, great -.- I totally forgot that CIKGU RINAS BIRTHDAY IS TMRW.

I PASSED ART WITH FLYING COLOURS. Ok, not really but i got an A1.
Other papers i dont bother. Rubbish bin, there you go.

Love,
MELzukifli

Love,
MELzukifli

This is Shaykh! BUDDY BUDDY. MY OWL. haha! He never fails to cheer me up whenever im down. I love you alot! ;D And u also cheer up! Eat while u can, dont stop eating just because of the girl okay. U skinny leh, WHY NAK SKINNY LAGI NI. Eheheh.



Im waiting for wani to finish bathing. She asked me to stare at the lollipop while waiting. CUTE RIGHT SHE. KAY TOO BAD, shes my bestfriend! haha. ILOVEHER.

byebye.



I fear for all this to happen. And yah, it just did.
Im already sad. I dont know wht to believe anymore.

Red lorry, yellow lorry
Red lorry, yellow lorry
Red lorry, yellow lorry
Red lorry, yellow lorry
Red lorry, yellow lorry
( 2x) Reapeat it twice. Say it fast.
HARD? haha. Tounge twisters are the best <33


I miss going out with my friends already.
I miss having sister always around me already.
I miss having something to do each and everyday.
Oh yes, i miss you also.


PREPAID RUNNING LOW. YES. CURRENTLY SEVEN DOLLARS.
ANYTHING IMPORTANT CALL MY HOME PLEASE. CALL BEFORE 10.30p.m!IF NOT DADDY MUMMY ANGRY. TYTY! YOU PEOPLE LOVE ME RIGHT, DONT LIKE ME GETTING SCOLDED RIGHT haha.


Wah wah wah, what happen to my tagboard ni.
Replies:


Guest: my face not clean! pictures tells lies!

Mir: Ah. stop bluffing.

Pb: how? err. I dont remember. why?

Daily reader: Erm, whats the point giving him a chance whn im just doing that to make him happy but not cause i love him? Never thouught of that? I treasure him as a friend and not more than that(: My life journey depends on God and i.

Ilymel: Because im not like any other girls u try to hook up with?

Passerby:Clear enough i know who u are. Alright, ur my past and u left me. I thank you for that. Cause now im more careful and strong and happy. His a friend, nothing more then that. Dont get angry, ur still my friend.

whoami? , not passerby, not spammer, yo momma, school:STOP IT EH DANIAL LLOYD! hahahahaha.


Goodbye.


Love,
MELzukifli

What comes out with 10 legs but goes in with 2 legs.
GUESS QUICK!



Love,
MELzukifli

( My dearest asked me to upload this. So yeah, happy now? ;P)
I look wierd dont u guys think so? pfftt. Eheh nvm.


Im having second thoughts. I dont feel like going to school tmrw. Basically cause i have yet to clear up my nail polish, iron my school clothes and to wake up damn early. Pass few days i feel uglier then ugly. Fatter then fat and ectect. Sister is going KL tmrw and im going to miss her eventhough shes going off for only three days.
All alone tmrw(mybe).


so now, tell me.
Should i head to school tmrw or not? hmm.


Love,
MELzukifli

Movie marathon(ed) at Erins crib yesterday. It was v.FUN! Watched this Thriller show that's gonna be stucked in my head like forever and ever and ever! So M18! We screamed and ' ewww ' alot! Hahahal Mira learned something new. U GO GIRL! Its in the blood!. Some of them had to go off first, how sad. i stayed till 9 plus and yep, cabbed home. ILOVEYOU PEOPLE -huggs-

IM ANGRY CAUSE I CANT MAKE IT for TODAY( out to get aisyah bikini) AND TMRW ( out to sentosa with the all time 6 girls!).BIG FFFFFFF! SO irritated! SO angry!!! SO SO SO................. ARGGGHH!


_ _ _ _ _ <3




Love,
MELzukifli

Alright so here it goes.
Im having a hard time trying to complete art cause i simply dont have enough time.
Thought of doing em all today but SUDDEN plans came up. I was so irritated, i swear. I was out all day till 9pm. Then i started studying chemistery. Nothing, and i mean NOTHING seems to be in my brain cells at all. Im simply wasting my time, once again.

thats it.
MEL IS FLOPPING EOY. - cry cry cry-
Right, i shall wash my face, put some ice and off to bed. Gdnight, ly!



thinking.thinking.thinking.
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Love,
MELzukifli

Had a great time , eating mac, manicuring, crapping, talking with Aisyah, Erin, Qee and not forgetting baby sa'diah(mind the spelling i anyho).Headed to Erins crib. Hoping to gather again next time.

071009 marco.
Eventhough the movie fame is abit bleahs, i love Marco. If only.. ( Kay, i know my dear friends. Dream on right?! haha, ceh" But still, every girl wants that part of him as ur belonging whatz - laughoutloud- I shall go off to bed. Am super sleepy. Gdnight.


sadness came crawling, crawling out of no where.
I dont have the right to do so. I shan't i shan't.
Keep it cool melmel. ( pffttttahaha)




_ _ _ _ _ <3333
cause i love you so.



Love,
MELzukifli

supp.
Suppose to be studying but whatever i need a break. 2 exams down, more to go. I've been focusing too much on Geog! tsk. Art is the bang, i havent start any prep boards at all -claps-. Today was great. Every little bit shared between me and Filzah. Having someone thats easy to talk things out with is great. No grudges, its peaceful. I know, Shes just like me. Go figure.

ANYWAY GOODLUCK SRI, EOY!.









Thanks Nick fr the msg smack early in the morning.
So caring hor haha. But ur still that irritating boy i know!

Are u reading this? haha.

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ITS 4.23 a.m and im not asleep! I cant sleep!
HELLP! Where is my sister seh.

I fell sick all of a sudden.
Cough, headache and now fever.
Exams back on Wednesday. I have to study but my big head is really heavy ): Im tired.Too weak. I want to sleep like theres no tomorrow.

Thank God, we worked things out guys! No more going back to square one alright. Trust, we all need trust girlfriends. I love you guys like how i love all the other people in the whole wide world. Anyway, i went out with Haik yesterday to mustafa. On our way there, He and i bought yogurt drink. He got the big cotten one while i got the bottle-like one instead. So yeah, while walking to the train we started drinking.Behind us there was two old-minahs.

minah:Ah togok banyak2, kan hiphop dancers! minom minom.
Haik: Eh, they talking about me drinking this cotten drink and they thought we are hiphop dancers. HAHAHA.
Me: HAH? serious? wth. Takkan hiphop dancers wear like hw im dressing now seh? HAHAHA. Sempat bbual pasal orang lak tu -.-
Haik: They thought we're chinese or some non- malay kid mel, isnt it obviouse.
Me: zzzzzzz...

WTH right? haha. Idk how she got the idea that we're hiphop dancers when we're not even one. Hilarious. Minahs2, tak kacau orang tak sah ke. Aduhai.


To u.

I apologize for mybe misunderstanding u and got mad? I was just protecting my sister cause i know shes a nice person. So yeah. Whether or not whatever u told kakak is the truth, i'll just say sorry.


imy, how?
handsome boy.